To share some closing thoughts on our experiences these past ten months, here is one of my favorite quotes of all time from the movie and book "Out of Africa" by: Isaac Dennison. Karen says this at the end of the story in reflecting on a lifetime spent living in Africa before she moves back to Denmark.
“If I knew a song of Africa, of the giraffe, and the African new moon lying on her back, of the plows in the fields, and the sweaty faces of the coffee pickers, does Africa know a song of me? Will the air over the plain quiver in a color that I have had on? Or will the children invent a game in which my name is? Or the full moon throw a shadow over the gravel of the drive that was like me? Or will the Eagles of the Ungong hills look out for me?”
Likewise in Karen's style I have composed the following, entitled:
Leaving Poland
In reflecting on our term here in Poland as we are about to finish and move back to Canada, I remember the words of Karen in “Out of Africa”, because we are asking ourselves the same questions… If I knew a song of Poland- of the tiny stores, and the random shrubs decorating the lawns, of the old people dressed up to go to mass by the masses each Sunday, or of the old war torn buildings that remind the people of their troubled past, does Poland know a song of me?
What are we leaving behind? What have we learned? What will we miss the most?
We will be answering these questions for weeks to come. No matter how you leave a place you have lived in, it seems inescapable that you must lose something in the process of leaving it. We have practiced how to wait this year, and I have realized that it seems we are always waiting for something- we wait… to wait. We have gained patience, but we still lack it. Perhaps we will be learning how to be patient in trials of waiting for a lifetime to come.
We will grieve leaving Poland because of the relationships we have had, the energy we have poured into ministry, and the life we have grown to love here. There’s a part of us that in a sense dies, and is left behind. This is maybe the most difficult aspect for our dear family and friends- excitedly waiting for our homecoming, to appreciate. Not that we don't look forward to being "home" again, it is just that Poland has become our home as well and we are being torn between two completely different worlds. But, in leaving one of the most exciting aspects is that of reflection: being able to see the contrast between who we were and who we have become, and counting the multitude of things we have learned, and the ways we have grown, which will not fully be revealed for years to come. And the ways Poland has changed us, perhaps forever- this we are most grateful for.